Yesterday Stacy and I had a pretty scary afternoon. Our youngest son Baylor had a slight fever when Stacy met some friends at Sharon Woods for a couple hours of fun. When she left the park she was in the McDonalds drive thru and Baylor went into a seizure. I know it's not that uncommon for children to do this but out of our 5 this has never happen so it was pretty scary. Stacy rushed him to the hospital and they gave him a clear report and we have been monitoring his fever since but it was definitely a pretty anxiety filled afternoon.
This morning I was running thru my response to the texts and calls in my mind and as all the fear rose up in me I kept saying to myself "all you can do is PRAY". I was with a Pastor Friend at the time and I was trying my very best to carry a normal conversation about how I had seen this kind of thing many times with other children as we were doing about 90 miles an hour toward the hospital.
As I was praying this morning I was thinking about how I kept saying that to myself and it occurred to me that it wasn't only "all I could do" but it was also "all I really wanted to do". You see in that moment of confusion and concern it was my trust and complete surrender to the Lord Jesus that was kicking in. More important to me at that moment than answers was knowing that God was Sovereign and active and going to Him at that moment was more than all I could do, it was all I really wanted to do. Since I believe what Psalms 62:7-8 NIV says which is "My salvation and my honor depend on God ; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. {8} Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. Selah" it wasn't only the right thing for me to do, it was also the most productive for me and my family.
So next time you feel like all you can do is PRAY, remind yourself that it is probably all you really want to do also......just because it is outside your control its not outside of His. He really is working things together for His Glory and Your Good!